June 5, 2018


You know what? Life is hard without you here.

I miss you and I love you. I have pretty much resolved that I always will.

Since you went to be with the Lord, I have not laughed as hard as you made me laugh everyday. I am not sure I ever will.

And, you know that b...

February 5, 2018

2018 has kicked off with the shedding of many tears.

In part, the tears are a response to the glaring reality that I entered 2017 with my husband but I exited without him. I am moving forward, but not with the one who has been my teammate for so long. I have heard it sa...

December 7, 2017

One night, I walked into the bedroom around 11:00 o’clock and found my husband sitting up in the bed working on his laptop. The room was dark. Only the dim light from his laptop screen provided light. What struck me was the look on his face. I knew he was in deep thoug...

December 1, 2017

I find myself doing a lot of reminiscing.

Perhaps this is my way of trying to grasp and grab hold to every moment and the very essence of my husband. Thus, I have been looking at old pictures, posts, and emails. I recently came across an email Kenneth sent me one time a...

November 22, 2017

These days, I am often asked these questions: “How are you?” “How are the children?” or “How are you holding up?”

Honestly, I am not quite sure how to answer these questions. I have settled on “I’m/We are okay.” simply because “We are not doing good.” would be a lie. Go...

November 16, 2017

All of 2017, people kept praying and prophesying to my husband that he would recieve a promotion. We kept trying to figure out how that was possible since there was no position directly above him at his job that would allow him to do the same work.

On the morning of Oct...

November 14, 2017

If you know Kenneth and I from back in the day, you know the significance and close relationship we shared with our good friend, Tiffany. We were friends in high school and Kenneth and I followed in Tiffany’s footsteps by attending Northwestern University.

Before Kennet...

November 9, 2017

In efforts to send thank you notes to those who attended the services for my husband and/or mailed cards to my home, I went to purchase some thank you cards from Target. In the check out line, the cashier looks down and notices the enormous amount of thank you cards I...

November 7, 2017

With so many decisions to make, so much to tend to, and the absence of the one who influenced my decisions the most, I ask myself this question at least 50 times a day: “What would Kenneth do/say/like/think?”

In the store: “Should I get this dress? ...No. He would say i...

November 3, 2017

About a week before my husband passed away, I was praying and meditating on the story of Joseph. I was thinking about how difficult it must have been for Joseph, a young man, to dream a dream from the Lord that he would be honored by his family and in a place of promin...

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